Wednesday, July 30, 2008

A week passes.

Blog views in the past week: 0.  That has to be some kind of record.

The mayor of Chicago came to the library to announce a new funding program for kids.  He shook everyone's hand that lined up.  Everyone except mine.  He walked right past me, didn't even offer me a smile.  I don't think I have ever felt more invisible.

In my apartment(closet more like it) I keep a picture of my family.  I look at it while I lay in bed, and I imagine that I'm still back there, and nothing ever happened, and nothing ever changed.

I imagine that I'm still in love with her, and our date that night went fine, and I never took my eyes off the road, and I never hit the bridge embankment, and I never heard her scream, and I never watched the life leave her eyes while I waited on the ambulance.

I imagine all of this, then when I sleep, the nightmares come back.

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